Epiphany.....

The old quote "G-d only gives you what you can handle." has been tinkering in my mind all week long.
We have all heard it, I have even said it once or twice. Maybe, for a time, I even believed it.

I have officially changed my mind.

G-d gives you nothing.
You give yourself the power to overcome, the strength to move forward, and the courage to face true fear.

Four months ago my mom died.
Four days ago my dad found out he is most likely battling lung cancer.

I asked myself for a brief moment, "Did G-d give me more than I can handle?"
I decided that G-d has given me nothing. I believe in the power of a higher being, but I no longer have any faith in the idea that G-d controls daily events or give me any special power to push forward. I give that to myself.


My amazing father. Strong, sweet, good to the core. Never tells a lie, always sees the beauty in people....golden.

Twelve months ago I had two parents visiting me on this holiday weekend. Today I have one parent I will visit at the cemetery, and another I will comfort as he fears what his future will hold.
I am not bitter. I am grateful. I have learned to be grateful for today....as tomorrow is uncertain.

I have my dad in the present and I plan to start enjoying him more today than ever before. I know he will beat this monster. He was vigilant and caught it early. He will most definitely survive.

And when he does......I will not thank G-d.

I will thank my father....for it is his fight to win.